I've just been thinking about stuff lately. About myself and what I really want to do with my life, and which choices I'm making. My best friend is graduating this year, so it's going to be tough that I won't see her at school every day. Another friend is switching schools an hour and a half away, and she kind of introduced me to Rookie and cool music a year and a half ago. I'm going to miss both of them. I need to think about how happy both of them will be, but I also need to think about what that means for me. I know that sounds really selfish. I've finally begun to be a little more social, and for the first time in a very long while I had people I barely know over to my house, which was nice because they both thought my room looks super cool. I think I might be becoming friends with their little group.
Sometimes I also feel that I don't know enough, about music, books, movies and people. People talk about certain bands and actors/actresses on their blogs and the name rings a bell, but I don't know about them at all. I feel that I should know more. About authors, artists, everything I care about. I should probably read more, and find more websites besides Rookie and Tumblr where I can learn cool stuff. I'm worried that I'm losing my knowledge, knowledge that I never had. I know that sounds dumb, but I do. I feel that there's just too much out there that I can't reach. I have so much books, so much music and so many movies I want to read, listen to and see that I just don't have enough time.
Next year, I'm taking an easier math course which is great for me because I suck at math. And art too, because I love it so much. There's also a course called LF, which stands for Literary Focus, and basically you just read books all year and discuss them with the class. I'm kind of excited for that, but nobody I know is taking it yet. I only have 2 years of school left, hopefully they'll go by as fast as this year did. In University, I want to take fine arts. I know you can't really do much with that, but the experience will be great. I want to be a writer, but I don't think that'll happen because of the competitive industry. I write all the time, short stories, and in my journal. I record my dreams too, I've no idea why. I just feel that my life has little to no direction right now, and maybe I should take a little break from blogging on here, just so I can sort things out for myself. I have exams and stuff coming up too, so I'm going to take a break. Goodbye, but not for long I hope. I just needed to get all that shit off my chest. Congrats to you if you got through all that.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Top is just random, cardigan is forever21, skirt is thrifted, boots are docs.
I went to Fleetwood Mac yesterday, it was awesome. Stevie Nicks was so amazing, I mainly took pictures of her, and videos too. She had beads and scarves draped over her microphone, which was really cool, and she was dressed in a black dress which was all flowy and nice. It was an amazing experience! They played some new songs, some from their first record, a few from Tusk and from Rumors. Above is what I wore, below are some crummy pictures I took and a jumpy video. I tried to upload Landslide, which is my favourite song, but it's being really slow and dumb.
These are just some cool backgrounds they had:
And I just loved this.